Part 4: A Place to Meet

The attorneys proposed a temporary schedule for visits. Anna and I reviewed it separately, then discussed the details with a mediator. The first visits would take place at a family center where staff could explain the space and help us keep the focus on our son.

I arrived with a bag containing everything on the list and three items that were not. Anna looked at the extras: a blanket, a toy, and a book too large for the carrier.

“You don't need to bring a present every time,” she said.

“I didn't know what would be useful.”

“The list tells you.”

I put the extras back in the car. Inside, a staff member showed us where to wash our hands and where we could sit. Anna explained the feeding schedule the pediatric team had given her. I asked her to repeat one part and wrote it down.

When she placed our son in my arms, I was afraid of holding him incorrectly. She showed me how she supported his head, and I adjusted my position. He opened his eyes briefly, then settled against my chest.

Anna watched without speaking. I did not ask her to reassure me. She had been learning these details while recovering and arranging care. I could listen and practice.

The visit ended after an hour. I asked whether the next time could be longer. Anna said we would review the schedule with the mediator after several visits. I wanted to argue that I was his father. I also knew that a title did not replace the work of learning his routine.

At the next meeting, I arrived late. A client had called as I was leaving, and I had answered. I sent a message, but only after the agreed time had passed. Anna had already begun the routine without me.

“I'm sorry,” I said.

“What will you change?” she asked.

The question stopped me. I was used to apologies ending a conversation. Here the apology was the beginning of a plan.

“I'll leave the office earlier and let Elena handle calls during the visit. If I'm delayed, I'll tell you as soon as I know.”

She nodded. “Please do.”

I followed through the next week. Elena took the calls, and the company did not collapse. One client complained that I was unavailable. Elena scheduled a meeting for the following morning and resolved the immediate issue with the regional manager.

At home, I noticed the bassinet was still beside the bed. I asked Anna through the shared account whether she wanted it moved or collected. She said I could keep it for future visits if it met the safety guidance from the care team. I checked the instructions and asked the pediatric office where to find current information.

My mother offered to decorate the room. I told her Anna and I needed to agree on what would be useful first. She raised an eyebrow but accepted it.

Later that night Anna sent a message: He has another appointment next Thursday. I can send the details tomorrow.

I replied, Thank you. I'll keep the time free. Then I made sure the calendar reflected the promise before I put the phone down.